A Hard Life?

Listening To: Breaking Benjamin - Diary of Jane


Sometimes life is hard. Today was the first day of year 12 testing. You know the kind you do right before you finish school. F**k it was hard. I have a full day of testing tomorrow as well. Joy. At least most of my assignments are done and I only have testing for my subjects left, after tomorrow.

I have been playing my guitar and it’s frustrating. I’m trying to get more advanced and I’m struggling and don't even mention singing along with it, way too hard. I have never really sung in front of anyone before but hopefully I will one day. I know I can sing because sometimes I get carried away in front of people and they say I can, also, one of my sisters can so it obviously runs in the family. I have four sisters (no brothers and yes it can be hectic!!) and only me and one other can sing, weird right? Mmmm, not really.

Life seems to be getting hard. I want a lot of things and they seem so far away. I have to save to get a car and get my license, get a better job, apply for uni and lots of other things. The thing I want the most seems furthest away. A career in music. I don't know where to start. Do I join a band; I mean I don't think I could ever go solo. Do they advertise positions in the classifieds? Ha ha ha, maybe. Who do I know wants to be in a band? Actually I have a friend (who lives 16 hours away) who wants to sing. Maybe I could start a band with her. She doesn't know how to play any instruments though. She is moving down next year, It could be a start.  

So much to do. So much to think about. I'm so overwhelmed. Anyway, got to go and live my life and hopefully make something of it!!! :)